THE GIRL - Annie Yukiko Chan
From my interests, style, writing and appearance; many impressions have probably been created upon me. I am what I am. One major positive aspect about me is that I'm true to my written words. Nothing is as true as Annie's written words, I always tell people. My words is the way to peel the layers off of me as I'm a slow warmer. To understand this girl in the picture, her writing is the only way to go as I am very protective over myself in person. I don't trust easily and I don't like to be read. However, in writing I feel that I can express everything freely as the blank piece of paper will not come back and bite me.
Currently, I'm busy with life and what it has to offer. But what life has to offer is what you ask for. I guess I asked for something that can never be mine but still believe that one day, I'll see it or feel its presence. I'm still in school, attending the Ryerson University in Toronto - studying Hospitality and Tourism Management. I've been familiar with this city all my life. However, being a quarter Jap and three quarters Chinese, I don't consider myself as one of those who grew up here cause I'm quite into the Asian culture. My favourite past times are sitting in the patio while enjoying a glass of bubble tea and singing my lungs out in a karaoke room. Expressing and enjoying life are the keywords to my lifestyle. Off that, I'm the youngest of three children. On the personal level, I am currently taken in a 10 month relationship that is quite a rollercoaster ride.
That said, I feel like I'm trapped in this world, in a routine life. School, friends, family, boyfriend, and work. Isn't it boring? Have you ever felt that way? Earth itself is a prison that we can't escape. Going against what the world got itself into seems like pain but going along with the world's mistakes is more pain. What should we as humans do? Watch the world fall apart?
I long chose to live in my own world with faith and hope. Even if the world isn't going along your imaginations, there was a purpose in every action you made and something that you looked forward to everyday. Hope is never too much. Sometimes, life is about not caring and having an ounce of optimism to say to yourself, it's okay for certain things to happen. The bad things shouldn't conquer all because in contrast, there's the good. Balance it. When life pulls you in different directions, learn to work out the balance. Survival is being able to cope with life's struggle. The bad times force hope into making you stronger. The good times leaves you craving for better. But overall, just be happy and satisfied for the moment. Then, you're already one step closer to paradise. I recently learnt my lesson with time. Life is about taking it one step at a time. Going one step ahead is good but completing the step at the moment is already good enough to see a better tomorrow. So what is the step your have to ensure right now? Do it right away as nothing is guaranteed. Tomorrow might be one step too late. Time will never stop or turn back for you, keep that in mind.
Many friends and people see me as an inspirational person because I talk and express like poetic freak or philosopher as they call me. I don't know why but talking deep comes very naturally for me. Perhaps I grew in an environment where observation was what I learnt to do hence, I've witnessed a lot. I was never taught the big principles but I picked up a lot of morals and beliefs on my own while growing up in a disastrous place. Drama is one thing I can't run from when it comes to friendships and relationships. I always end up in some sort of twists and turns or triangle shit. When it comes to people, I can get really stressed out. That's why I'm diagnosed with Hypertrophic/Stress Cardiomyopathy. My waking hours can kill me anytime. As a person who can not see my far future, I think I'm pretty strong for not giving up on life. So whenever you feel like giving up, think of me. You have no reason to give up.